HE STOOD ME UP!! Yep! He stood me up... Probably, because I did the same thing to him yesterday. SUCKS!! Now, that I see how I'm reacting it seems like I have feelings for him... Which is pretty scary!! That shit can't happen... Whatever. I'm going to wait till he texts me back or just not talk to him through phone.. I guess. Because I'm definitely not making this shit awkward whenever we work.. UGH! Whatever happens, happens... Right?!

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Now, I don't even know if I really want to see this guy... WHY?! Is my focus on guys when it should definitely be on L.A.... Have a brain that's constantly scattered with thoughts isn't very pleasant... *sigh* That's all... For now.

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I want to be SO adventurous with this boy... But I'm starting to think that he's catching on to my ways... He's starting to become more controlling... Like, if I don't want to do that shit then I won't do it.. Which is not bad, but it's also difficult for me to play him... Either way something's going wrong... *sigh* Let's see how tomorrow goes and I will try to make more of an effort to hang out with him... Hopefully, no one's around.... ;) -- I also have to start making more of an effort to take care of myself... Such as sleeping early and longer... Eating healthy... Getting back on that routine to exercise every morning... DAMN!! It's a lot!! And whenever I sit down think about it all... It tends to stress me out... Hopefully, whenever I write these it will make the STRESS go away... Living with anxiety ain't pleasant....

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